I am ENJOYING.

So, it's been two months I've been in Paris and that only means...TWO MORE MONTHS! It's a really crazy feeling that I can't pinpoint. I don't know what the word for it is. Amazed? Shocked? Surprised? That it's already been two months. I don't know how to feel. I'm excited to go home and see everyone but at the same time, ONLY TWO MORE MONTHS?!?! Everyone is starting to freak out, like no joke. And it's making me freak out. Like, "Oh my gosh, there is so much that I haven't done...ahhhhhhhh etc etc etc." And I totally understand that and it almost started rubbing off on me! AM I MAKING THE MOST OUT OF MY TRIP?!?!

I don't know. But it's like asking the same question about life. Am I making the most out of my life? Where is the limit? Do we ever have 100% complete satisfaction of fulfilling every single desire that we have? Not really. But we do what we can, experience what we can experience, make choices, make mistakes...and everything just falls into place. Everything happens for a reason. And we should live without regrets. Yes, we can live with regretting not doing certain things, but once they have passed, what can we do? So, might as well not regret and understand that it is what it is. 

Of course, I still have a whole list of things that I want to do. I've been crossing things off, but adding more as I go. I honestly think that I won't have to time to do everything, which is sad, but acceptable, because even being here in Paris, is already a dream come true. Can't be too selfish no? I'm not trying to say that all I want to do is be a slob and stay home everyday. But I just don't have the money or time (because I should be studying more...) to go crazy and I think I am completely okay with that. Or, I will force myself to be okay with that so I won't freak out and start getting into that panic attack/anxiety madness mode. Nooooo! to that.

All I gotta do is continue to discover and enjoy. Hooray.

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Thank you, Paris (for the millionth time!) + Thank you, Sham (for our lovely pep talk!)

Love you both.