Self-reflection kinda day.

Today is Saturday and I literally spent the whole day at home. I took a shower and stuff but I changed right back into my jammies and snuggled up in a hoodie and socks. I finished my French homework for le week-end but of course, could not get my reading done!!! I also went through some old pictures, I don't know why, but they also brought back nice memories. I miss you, friends and family! Today was seriously just a nice, restful day. Though there is so much happening outside of my apartment in the city, I just really needed it to chill out and think about everything that's been going on.  

This past week has been filled with many more nice adventures. Going to see an orchestra at the Champs Elysées, going to magical Chantilly, going back to the Versailles Gardens, just hanging out, blah blah. Though this week seemed like every other, I have also been meeting a lot more nice people in which I've been having really nice, deep talks with! 

I've realized that I'm SERIOUSLY lucky to be here. I'm not just on vacation but I'm actually living here for four months. When we say, "Hey, let's hang out today," it's not just to go get boba (though I miss it a lot), we go to way amazing places on trains that are way out of the ordinary! And really, it's such an amazing opportunity that just fell into my lap. Yes, I had to go out of my way to apply and stuff but I have been financially BLESSED on this trip and that's basically how I'm surviving right now! Because of the fact that I am so blessed, I feel selfish almost!! Like, what the heck did I do to deserve this kind of trip where I experience amazing things, you know? 

And I'm not saying all of this because I want to brag but also to point out that things have been turning out the way they are because I'm really trying to make the best of every situation. Yes, everything is amazing but there are also many, many hard things about being here. Not everyday is super, duper dandy! There's a lot of things I'm experiencing here that are rough and tough and I don't understand why things are happening. Like I said, this is my lifestyle, not a vacation, where real life things are happening here and back at home and they're things that I must deal with. BUT I'm really lucky to have people back at home and around me who are supporting me through all of this. I get really happy people when people tell me that they looked at my pictures or read my blog because it's really nice knowing that people are supporting me in my dreams and passions, you know? And I just wanted to thank you guys for that! Being here is making me realize that I'm blessed for the things in France but I'm always super blessed for the things at home. I really do miss home, friends, and family! Thanks for your love and all the jazz. It's been about a month so three more to go!

This post may not have made sense but I love you guys all anyways, France and home friends!